《醉生夢死 》

 

發現了幸福是苦的過後,試圖讓生活多一點甜,

當我們知道了自己想要的,才會有氣餒的時候,

然而,一生的事情就是永無止境的延續,包括苦。

 

我們所煩惱的不是未來的未知數,

而是知道清楚卻無力而為,無法承認。

 

步伐往前去,心態往回走,擁抱自己的生命體,感受與理解。

迷路時,回頭看看自己如何走來,

哪天在路上遇見了我,將一起各自的完整自己。

 

醉是因為醒,夢是因為醒。

<Endless Hidden>

 

There is always “bitterness” in what we called happiness, and I keep trying to inject some sort of sweetness into everydayʼs life after such realisation. The feelings of frustration would still emerge, after we think weʼre determined on what we really want. However, everything in life goes continuously, including the “bitterness”.

 

It’s not the uncertainty of the future that annoys us,

but the futility of actions and fear of admitting it all after realisation.

 

Step forward and think backwards, to endure myself as a form of life, trying to feel and understand. Look back and review on “how did I get here” whenever get lost. We shall be completed together but yet individually, whenever our paths cross.

 

Get drunk because I was sobered. Dreaming because I was awoken.

-創作者的話:

 

《醉生夢死》是《生命體系列》的第一個課題。

 

最近的夜裡,幾乎每一晚都在做清醒夢,看著自己在夢裏徘徊。夢醒過後,靜候著那一幕幕的情境在現實裡重現,陌生而熟悉。

 

這一批作品呈現的構圖與以往大相逕庭。過去一年,一直在吸收別人的故事,再以有形化的抽象畫說出來,而那些作品都缺少了我。於是,我開始了一個尋找自我,思考生命與存在的旅程,當結論在「生,是為了死」後,有種莫名的難受,因為世界上最痛苦的,是你知道了一切卻無能為力。醉-成了尋找慰藉的選擇,夢-成了逃避現實的世界。

 

我們一直往前爬,自認為在找尋未知的一切,卻沒發現,那些所謂「未知」就是完整自己的部分,不被自己承認的缺失。其實我們可以「回憶未來」,只是我們都沒有相信自己。而在我的相信中,我選擇了放手。於是乎,《生命體系列》的創作過程需要讓自己抽身,盡可能的使用最少工具/沒有工具的情況下,只以顏料本身的狀態而靜候變化,欣賞每一幅細胞獨一無二的成長。

 

醉生夢死,是一個選擇。

-What do I have to say:
 

<Endless Hidden> is the first subject I have in the < Forms Of Life >series.

 

I experienced lucid dreaming nearly every night recently, to see myself wandering in the dreams. I awaited the reappearance of all those scenarios Iʼve gone through in my dreams in everydayʼs life, thinking that they felt distanced but yet familiar.

 

The structures of this series of works are so different from my previous works. For the passed year, Iʼve been absorbing the stories of the others, and tried to tell their stories through my formative abstract paintings, but yet I felt like “I” was absent in those. So I started a journey of self discovery, to spend time on thinking about life and existence. An indiscernible hard feeling strikes, when I came to such a conclusion - “to live is to prepare for the death”. Because to me, the most painful thing in this world is the futility of actions after realising it all. Intoxication is a way to seek comfort, dreaming is for the escape of the world called “reality”.

 

We kept on crawling, thinking weʼre seeking for everything that was previously unknown, yet without findings. Those “unknowns” were meant to be a part of self completion, and the flaws we didnʼt dare to admit. We can actually try to “foresee the future” and turn it into actions, but we didnʼt believe enough. And in my believes, I chose to let go. I let myself go in the creation process of this series of paintings. I limited myself on the options of tools (or even without the help of tools), to let the paint transform freely while I await and to appreciate the unique growth of each “cells”.

 

I chose to live the drunken dreams.

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